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That was ... nice.
I guess I needed that. A reminder of why I've been staying up late at night, and why I wake up feeling exhausted. Why I have to scan ridiculously old books for any hint of how to both succeed and keep my head attached to my neck. Why I have to trace complicated runes over and over in my head, until I'm sure every stroke is in its correct place. I'm doing all of that so that she can be that person I see when we're out on our silly little picnics, a person she doesn't have to lock away when Desmund isn't here.
It's not a bad motivator.
That was ... nice.
I guess I needed that. A reminder of why I've been staying up late at night, and why I wake up feeling exhausted. Why I have to scan ridiculously old books for any hint of how to both succeed and keep my head attached to my neck. Why I have to trace complicated runes over and over in my head, until I'm sure every stroke is in its correct place. I'm doing all of that so that she can be that person I see when we're out on our silly little picnics, a person she doesn't have to lock away when Desmund isn't here.
It's not a bad motivator.
