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thirdwheel) wrote2013-02-28 09:07 pm
thirdwheel) wrote2013-02-28 09:07 pm
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That went as badly as it could possibly get, which is to say, it was pretty awful. She's not going to be writing to me for a long time, in the most optimistic case. She might not even write again.
Dragons, I fucked up, didn't I? I went into this entire thing with getting to know Desmund better and hoping to talk him into getting Aurnia out of manor at least, thinking it'd be easy, and I just ended up making everything worse. If it weren't for me, Desmund wouldn't have gone home that day, and he'd still be alive, and Aurnia wouldn't practically be a slave in her own house. Now, thanks to me, she's left at the mercy of a pair of awful people, which she prefers at this point over my help, and really, why should she trust me at this point. I should've been honest with her from the start. I should've been honest with Desmund from the start. Should've just left everything well alone.
I don't have long to mope around either. The holiday's tomorrow, and the triplets will be dragging me towards the citadel. I don't want to have to deal with crowds tomorrow. Maybe this hiding away from everything is how Erin feels. ... Dragons, Erin. I don't really want to tell her anything about this, I really don't. It's not like she can help me, she's practically another world away, running from dragon knights and whatever else. She's going to love hearing about how things have blown up in my face. No ... she's got enough to deal with.
That went as badly as it could possibly get, which is to say, it was pretty awful. She's not going to be writing to me for a long time, in the most optimistic case. She might not even write again.
Dragons, I fucked up, didn't I? I went into this entire thing with getting to know Desmund better and hoping to talk him into getting Aurnia out of manor at least, thinking it'd be easy, and I just ended up making everything worse. If it weren't for me, Desmund wouldn't have gone home that day, and he'd still be alive, and Aurnia wouldn't practically be a slave in her own house. Now, thanks to me, she's left at the mercy of a pair of awful people, which she prefers at this point over my help, and really, why should she trust me at this point. I should've been honest with her from the start. I should've been honest with Desmund from the start. Should've just left everything well alone.
I don't have long to mope around either. The holiday's tomorrow, and the triplets will be dragging me towards the citadel. I don't want to have to deal with crowds tomorrow. Maybe this hiding away from everything is how Erin feels. ... Dragons, Erin. I don't really want to tell her anything about this, I really don't. It's not like she can help me, she's practically another world away, running from dragon knights and whatever else. She's going to love hearing about how things have blown up in my face. No ... she's got enough to deal with.